I can't think

My best friend was taken by helicopter to Shock Trauma in Baltimore this afternoon (Saturday afternoon - I don't fucking even know what time it is any longer) and we're not sure what's happening.

If you know Lex, you know she is many things:
-A genius
-One of the best, if not THE BEST, singers out there
-An absolutely amazing writer who makes people cry with her words
-Despite her brain injury, she memorizes lyrics to every song. Seriously
-Someone who is currently reading three books because reading only one "is what lazy people do"
-A really good mom who is homeschooling her kid during a pandemic because she's worried about his health
-The most honest person I know
-The best person to go to for mental health advice
-Loving beyond words

And that person is about to have a vent shoved in her throat.

I - I cannot.

If you know her, please don't share this to her Insta or Twitter. I know no one will even see this, but just in case, her husband has asked me to keep things quiet. They've had a lot of close calls. Lex has coded several times in the past and still walked out of the hospital. So that can happen again. Her husband doesn't want to scare people until we know ALL the details and I respect that.

But my God, I am so, so scared and I needed to say that someplace.

A.Ham, my first real friend, the last honest face I may ever see - the best of wives and best of women - please wake up. Please, please be okay. You have a legacy, but there is more to it. It is NOT over. Not at all.